You are what is needed, even if you have personal desires. You are allowed to let yourself feel and enjoy life. This is not an easy task, I'll admit, but there is no fault in taking a chance.
Perhaps it is time for you to reconsider what you desire. Even if an emotional relationship is not the path this takes, there is no reason you should not pursue it if that is what you want.
He is small. Remarkably so. However, there is a strength to how he handles himself despite his youthful attitude and appearance. He is clearly used to leading, something that shows in how he is away of what it takes to be one.
Based on a session where we sparred it seems he recently lost one arm. Despite that he handles himself well with a bow, even able to almost hit me on several occasions. With enough practice I believe that he would be able of doing so.
[All high praise from someone like him. Proof that he does actually like Cyril.]
[He studies her for a moment. Like he's certain there's something more to what is going on here. Like he can sense...something.
He doesn't say anything but the look in his eyes says that he's sure she's kept something from him and he's allowing it.]
Based on my experience with him, he would appreciate further training. Since his bow is capable of a stun setting, it allows both sides to practice properly.
[Basically he let the Dalish shoot at him repeatedly.]
It makes me a little uneasy. [ She admits, idly tapping her fingers on her desk. ] I've taken to writing down my observations. [ She hasn't written in literally deca-pheobs] I don't wish the Atroma to know all of what I see.
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Date: 2019-01-17 06:05 am (UTC)This is not something you need to know now. However, it is something I think you should be very thoughtful of.
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Date: 2019-01-17 06:12 am (UTC)Perhaps it is time for you to reconsider what you desire. Even if an emotional relationship is not the path this takes, there is no reason you should not pursue it if that is what you want.
He has given you an opportunity to choose.
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Date: 2019-01-17 06:17 am (UTC)What he desires. It's been so long since he's thought about that.
Kolivan looks away a moment while he thinks some more before he finally nods.]
Have you met the Dalish known as Cyril?
[It's possible she hasn't but he knows he can ask at least.]
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Date: 2019-01-17 06:18 am (UTC)[ A slight tease, but she's trying to encourage him. ]
Tell me about him?
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Date: 2019-01-17 06:25 am (UTC)Based on a session where we sparred it seems he recently lost one arm. Despite that he handles himself well with a bow, even able to almost hit me on several occasions. With enough practice I believe that he would be able of doing so.
[All high praise from someone like him. Proof that he does actually like Cyril.]
I value my alliance with him.
[Friendship. It's called friendship, Kolivan.]
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Date: 2019-01-17 06:46 am (UTC)[ And sounds like she needs to meet this Dalish. Cyril has already make quite an impression and she knows Kolivan is difficult to impress. ]
Are you going to frown at me again if I encourage you to spend more time with him?
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Date: 2019-01-17 06:49 am (UTC)I intended to spend more time with him. I'm not sure what that has to do with what we are talking about.
[He's not really a thick person. He just has a very bad habit of forgetting to pay attention to emotions when he could be rational.]
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Date: 2019-01-17 06:56 am (UTC)Spending time with him will allow you to establish if you want a romantic or physical relationship with him. He clearly has your interest already.
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Date: 2019-01-17 06:58 am (UTC)So I will have to speak to him to find out what his full desires are.
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Date: 2019-01-18 05:44 am (UTC)[ She's smiling, but there's that heavy weight in her chest knowing what she does about her partner. She's happy for Kolivan and yet...]
I'd like to meet him some time. Perhaps we could train together.
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Date: 2019-01-18 05:51 am (UTC)He doesn't say anything but the look in his eyes says that he's sure she's kept something from him and he's allowing it.]
Based on my experience with him, he would appreciate further training. Since his bow is capable of a stun setting, it allows both sides to practice properly.
[Basically he let the Dalish shoot at him repeatedly.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 05:57 am (UTC)I would be glad to train with someone new. [ Though she won't bite Cyril like she bit Kolivan. She finally changes the subject.]
How are you adjusting to the constant down time?
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Date: 2019-01-18 06:02 am (UTC)[Yeah. That's it. That's all he has to say about it.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 06:11 am (UTC)It makes me a little uneasy. [ She admits, idly tapping her fingers on her desk. ] I've taken to writing down my observations. [ She hasn't written in literally deca-pheobs] I don't wish the Atroma to know all of what I see.
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Date: 2019-01-20 02:19 pm (UTC)